Day 73 "Against Gravity"

At times, we find ourselves having to take a moment out for ourselves, as if we have decided it best to put ourselves in the corner so to speak.

I catch Danbox laying in the darkness of a cupboard on his back and I think this must be exactly what he is doing right now. He stares up at the ceiling with such a blank and emotionless face that I truly worry about him in this moment.

I know this place well.

In this place we allow ourselves to dwell a bit in our own self-pity and regrets. In this place we force ourselves to see it from the darkest perspective that we have.

This is not necessarily a negative thing, sometimes you just need to tear yourself down emotionally for a bit, to speed up the process of hitting bottom, so that you can finally start to work your way back to the top.

It is always about trying to hit the bottom as fast as you can, but for almost all of us we fight so hard against gravity that we end up exhausting ourselves much longer than necessary. We end up putting a hold on the healing process of the climb back out of the emptiness.

Sometimes you just need a moment to let it all come down on you, to relieve yourself of the burden of carrying all that weight of carrying all your hopes, your desires and your heavy fears.

I imagine Danbox at this moment trying to sink further into the ground that his back rests upon, as if to say to the universe “Do your worst, in this moment I accept your heavy gravity”.

Lying back to the ground and eyes to the ceiling, focusing on nothing in particular, and just feeling the gravity of everything around us, accepting it for what it is; a moment. This simple act of allowing ourselves to succumb to the void within can sometimes lead to the pleasure of picking ourselves up and standing once again against the weight of everything.

Sometimes acceptance is defiance, and falling is the beginning of the climb back out.

Here I will rest a while longer, staring at this cold ceiling for a bit more, but soon I will embrace the warmth and hope that the sun brings once again.

Soon this little box man will shift and move away from the negative ground, and start the climb against it all.

Soon we will defy gravity once more.