Day 76 "Diamonds To Emeralds"

It is frustrating to know that you can spend your life in search of that diamond in the rough, and in pursuit of that one elusive desire closest to your heart, and you never know how close, or far, you actually are to finding it.

It is a heavy knowledge that we carry with us, every step of the way, and it forces us deeper in to the snow, making it harder to move forward from here. This knowledge that you can lose both blood and self-respect, that this journey will charge a heavy toll on both your faith and hope, that this desire to find something will be almost more difficult than walking away completely.

It is a terrible darkness to know that after all this time knee deep in the snow, frozen and lonely, after all this time of searching and questioning; that if you are lucky enough to uncover what it is that you were looking for, that there will always be someone waiting to take it from you. That there will always be that wolf following your trail of blood and tears, there will always be wolves in the distance.

There will always be a thief in the night.

We struggled to get here, we fell so many times that we lost count, and still we pushed on through the pain and stress of it all. We lost faith while our hope flickered and burned down to embers. We left a trail of our fading energies to show everyone just how tired we have become.

We brought the wolves here ourselves.

We stand stubborn and resolute against the forces of nature, and with a sword of hope, a shield of faith and a desire to defend what we found, we step forward into Hell one more time.

There is no guarantee that you will have the strength and destiny to hold on to this diamond that you feel is rightfully yours. There has never been a deal signed with Fate that promised you the diamond that you have always sought. 

In the end you may have to learn to let go of even the things that make you feel alive, you may have to rest when you reach the destination you have been travelling to, you may have to let the wolves creep in closer.

For some of us, we will only ever know the fight for this diamond, and we will stay walking wounded through this little Hell in pursuit of rescuing it, and ourselves in the process.

For others, they will choose to search for an emerald instead.