When you spend enough time outrunning demons, you eventually find
yourself in a strange place...an alien landscape.
The lush
green forests that you used to walk in a former life have changed somehow, now
they have been replaced by something less organic and more metal, and much
colder. Now everything has closed itself in, almost prison-like in nature.
Where we go
from here is anyone's guess, and the best you can do is continue on your blind
journey through this unknown place.
With hope as a
companion we stumble through this life, attempting to read the signs properly
and trying to find our way back home.
Is home a
place in the past or a destination in the future?
The people we
become on our journey back home are not ever the same people who made the first
step away from home in the first place.
One moment we
are lost and scared in the darkness of this new harsh metal forest that we now
find ourselves in, with no one close that feels close enough, and in this state
of mind we are scared and terribly lonely, and we stop, paralyzed by fear. We
always refuse to walk even a step further when we lose our northern star.
Eventually
there comes a clarity in understanding that Time The Thief has never stopped
pushing us away from our home, that Time never let us stop, for even a moment,
and our impressionable minds soon shift from fear to one of resentful
acceptance, for we never invited Time to walk with us this time around. This
time we will choose to run faster than Time The Thief can push us.This time our
chaotic minds will shift from fear, to resentment, to hope, and then to
understanding.
We once
thought that we could outrun our demons. We once thought that we had a chance
to leave all the darkness behind; well that was a long time ago now that we
once thought that.
We once
thought that we could hide in this alien forest and try to make a home here.
We once
thought that we could stop and stay in this lost place, paralyzed and scared.
We once
thought that we could navigate through this labyrinth on our own, without
taking the time to properly read the signs, to properly listen to our hearts
desires.
We once
thought a lot of things, but hope had other plans for us, and Time The Thief
does not allow you to carry the safety and weight of home with you.
Sometimes in
the process of outrunning demons you end up uncovering even more; but with the
forced dedication to overcome the fear, to understand and learn to navigate
this strange land, to run faster than Time The Thief can push, to stop looking
for the safety of home at every turn, sometimes, just sometimes, we end up
somewhere and someplace that connects with us, someplace that feels a bit more
like home.
Outrunning demons and uncovering new ones in the process. I tis agree, sometimes we can't help it or do not relize it
ReplyDeleteI have come to realize that we all have an inner dialogue going on with ourselves, that in the silence of our lives, everyone takes a moment to reflect on the choices that they have made, and could have made.
ReplyDeleteWe all know whether we are fulfilled or not, and telling ourselves that we are happy and content when all we want is something different, usually leads to having a few emotional demons to eventually deal with.
I am a fighter, and I hold close to hope in anything I do...so for me, I tend to stop and turn around and face my demons head on...it is always better that way.
Thank you for your comment, and keeping up with Danbox Rukia. :)
Facing demons head on is the way to go, pulling your strength to do that is the only way to achieve no matter how hard sometimes
DeleteI agree.
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