Day 45 "D-Day, V-Day"

How can anyone explain the depth of their complicated hearts?

There are no words deeper than emptiness and loneliness.

There are no words that placed together differently can outshine the power of saying "I miss you". These words that have no pride, no defense and are free of the problematic human trait of taking something, or someone, important for granted.

The anger felt at times is one that feels like you’re screaming the loudest you can into a mask that stops all sound.

These trying emotions of these wounded souls, how they struggle to form the words to break through the void, to reach someone’s heart.

How can anyone possibly explain the level of confusion in which path from here they are supposed to take, when all paths are met with the same fear and animosity?

I want to leave this behind, all of it.

I want to erase this day, to burn it down, to somehow reach through to someone that is trying so hard to reach out to someone else.

This complicated emotion is simple in nature.

If there is a chance to escape this, to leave this all behind, to move beyond the desire to speak these emotions out loud, then in the most simple way that I can say it, I will tell you this "I will try".