Day 52 "Failure And Perseverance"

Just because you try does not mean that it will work out.

Not every dream is meant to be achieved, not every desire is meant to be fulfilled, and not all of your best intentions will be seen quite the way that you intended them too be seen.

Some things in this world are meant to be difficult, some things are meant to try your patience and some things are meant to break you; if only momentarily.

You might take on challenges that are not yours alone to take on, and out of ego you may try to do exactly that.

You may suffer for pushing aside all the helping hands and taking on the titan alone, but even in failure there can be success.

You may choose to fight in silence and plan in secret.

You may lie to those around you to protect the ones that are not.

You may take on the greatest challenge of all, to silence the desires of your own self, so that you might once again protect the one behind the trigger.

You may try to fly on your own, with wings still soaked in blood, even though another has offered to clean them off for you, even though another has offered to learn to fly with you when they dry, and keep you company while they do.

There is no guarantee that climbing a mountain will lead you to the top, and no amount of prayers can force the attention of your angels in to motion.

Some trials are yours to have alone.

Some pain is yours to live with and to endure, and to learn from.

Some fears are yours to battle with bare hands that have no ability to carry proper weapons, and sometimes you have to accept that some dreams are not yours to make real, some desires are not meant to be sated completely, not alone.

This does not mean that you should not try to get what you want, to achieve the top of the mountain in this lifetime, to satisfy your desires, to pray loud enough to capture the attention of the angels, or anyone that might listen to your appeal.

All this does not mean that there is no value in the suffering, that there is no value in the disappointment from yet another failure, that there is no value in the destruction of your dreams.

Acceptance and perseverance is needed to see the value in falling down, in struggling to fly above the darkness and intimidation.

What matters is the act of trying, whether alone or with the help of another, it matters that you try to take on the titan, that you try to reach the top of that mountain and that you try to turn dust into gold.

It matters that you try with all that you have, for as long as you can.

It always matters.