Day 95 "We Never Know"

As we head in the direction of a place that exists somewhere in the future, somewhere in a future time, and somewhere in an unknown state of mind, we find ourselves filled with both apprehension and excitement.

From here we could be anything, we could do anything, and we might become lost too far from all the things that we know.

I have never been in control of the winds, and only a hope that I was heading in the right direction kept my sights on the horizon.

In my youth I never acknowledged time, I never paid attention to the consequences of every step that I took, because somehow I just knew that it would work itself out.

Now as an adult I struggle with the outcome, and analyze the decisions, the steps that I take and ever who I let my heart beat for.

As an adult I have never been so nervous and unsure of my intentions.

Who am I in the future?

Am I free from this cycle of thought, this worry that plagues me after a decision has been made?

In the future do I even find out the answer as to what part Danbox is to play in my life?

I want to appreciate the fact that I have moved on to new questions in my life.

No longer do I find myself obsessively asking myself, Time The Thief or the universe if my past will be coming back any time soon, or ever. Now I find myself asking if I will arrive at what I consider will be my destiny any time soon, or if this wanted sprint is more of an unwanted marathon?

The direction seems clear enough for me now, and even though I do not control the winds, I know that I can, and I will, attempt to trust the direction they desire to take me.

Where are we going?

We never know, at least I know that.