Day 243 "Breaking Down And Setting Fires"

There are infinite ways to break down, and not all of them can be seen.

As the outsiders watch, but keep their safe distance, they hesitate to help, because they don’t know you like I do.

We break down and fall apart in an effort to bring about a change, even if it looks like a desire to reclaim a history long gone.

We move forward because we have to, even if it feels like we are never moving anywhere at all.

We break down from pushing ourselves past the limits that we prayed we wouldn’t ever have to cross, but we always have to cross over to these new horizons.

We break down in silence as we try to hide our failure to continue on defending the lies we tell ourselves, but the ones that have always known you can see every crack in the mask you provide.

For all the tears, all the fires that we set, and all the walls we tear down as we fall apart and change, the worst mistake we can ever make is forgetting to appreciate how hard we had tried, and just how hard others have tried to help us as we broke down.