Day 284 "Are You In A Better Place?"

You were my big brother and you made mistakes, we all do, but you tried your best, even when I said it wasn't good enough.

You were my big brother, and it was only two days ago that we talked, and only yesterday that I didn't call you back...even though I thought about it.

You were my only brother, and now I am left with only this memory...and I can only promise not to forget you.

I promise to not let this pain ever turn into an anger that I cannot let go of.

I promise to try to live life in such a way that you would appreciate.

I promise not to forget your beautiful soul.

I will try to remember the way that you laughed, and hopefully I will learn to laugh again, the same way that you and I did on some of those better days that we shared.

You will always be my big brother, and even though I lost you forever today, I will keep you in my heart forever as well.

I promise to always appreciate having the chance to know you, and the beautiful opportunity, and gift it is to be called your little brother.

You always told me life was hard, and I always said that you were just looking at it wrong.

You are my big brother, and you are right, this life is beyond difficult sometimes; but it is also not without its amazing gifts either.

You left us today my brother, and you will be missed in such a way that my heart will never fully mend, but you are my big brother, and I can only ever hope that you have found a better place for that complicated mind of yours. I can only ever hope that you knew how much you were loved.

I promise to learn something from all this, something to share with the world, something that you would have been proud of; and above all else, I promise to never forget that we are eternal, and that, somehow, we may just meet up further down the road…I have to believe in any chance at all.

You will be missed.