Time for some spring cleaning again.
Time to change some things in my life, time to purge a bit more, and time to make room for something else; time
to take a look at all the skeletons in the closet once again.
I have procrastinated and put off the inevitable for far too long now,
all in the name of false hope and misplaced desires, and all because of the
flaw of being a human living among other flawed humans.
It is almost comedic to think how we seem to long for the difficulty and
the struggle in things. How we constantly demand the suffering of ourselves to
feel as though we can truly appreciate something to its fullest, how we demand
pain before we accept any ounce of pleasure, and how we push away before we
embrace; all of this for the sake of atonement.
After so long in the depths of the pain another can bring, and after so
long treading water in an attempt to outlast the storm, we all end up speaking
to our inner selves in the darkest of ways.
Everyone is broken.
Everyone has baggage.
Everyone will eventually hurt you, and you are worth nothing more than
the venom they spit in your face.
Everyone lies and that is the only truth.
Everyone will eventually let you down and break your will.
Everything sucks and everyone is shitty…
These words that become weights attached to our hearts, these heavy
words that drag us deep below and threaten to douse the flame of hope that
flickers within.
It is a beautiful gift to know that we can choose to stop treading water,
and to know that it is always our choice to start to swim back towards the
water’s edge.
It is our universal gift to carry with us the strength and will to stand
against even the most wicked of storms.
It is our shared gift, this freedom in knowing that we choose what to
throw away and what to keep.
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