Day 131 "What A Smile Is Worth"

There was once a time where I never looked beyond the moment that I was experiencing. Back when I felt no guilt for wasting time on the simple things that had no ambitious value.

I used to live in the illusion of safety, back before I could see the strings that were being used to control my movements.

That freedom was a long time ago now, and in many ways I have managed to get nothing but tangled in all these messy emotional strings that pull me along and yet hold me back, all at the same time.

I try so very hard to ignite that once childlike spirit within, to allow for moments of simple fun, moments without the psychological hangover of wasting my life on a simple smile.

 But how much is a smile really worth? How much effort should anyone put in for a simple smile?

As I watch Danbox jump freely upon the trampoline I fade back into my mind, and I attempt to recall a memory of a time where I did just the same; and I know that somewhere in the back of this mind that child still survives.

It is nice to know that I had those simple moments once.

Those moments that existed before Time The Thief exposed the treachery of its nature.

Those very moments that I took for granted until now, but now I don’t see these moments in any of the clarity that I once had.

Now they are fond and dull.

Now they are fading and being replaced.

Now they are becoming fiction and legend, or a myth in another life.

But I know that I once had them, these moments without gravity…these moments where I knew the value of a simple smile.