There is no denying the fact that I have been distracted for a long time
now, everywhere I look is proof that while I was trying to clean out my mind I
was leaving the rest to gather dust and decay.
Every single day one more dish is used and piled up on the counter, to
be done another day, another day that never seems to arrive.
I can sense the chaos that is starting to take hold in my life, and how
my surroundings are starting to look a lot like my confused and preoccupied
mind.
The apprehension I feel when I think about the power of gravity and
reality, it consumes me whole sometimes.
I know that I should really get to these damn dishes...tomorrow for
sure, but I know that if I wait for tomorrow, tomorrow will never arrive.
When you feel as though you are alone, even in a crowded room, you tend
to overlook the reality that you are not.
When you feel overwhelmed, and when you sense that no one is going to
help you out of your mess this time around, you tend to forget that there is
always one person who will offer you some much needed help, but they do not exist
in that realm of distraction.
For far too long have I been letting this chaos pile up and dirty my
life, and on the inside I have been hoping that I might figure out what I need
to do next, if I just leave my responsibilities on the floor just a bit longer.
Knowing that it was finally time to get my house in order, I braced myself
for the ugly reality I have created for myself while I vacationed in the back
of my mind; if you could ever call a struggle a vacation that is.
Turning the corner that led into the kitchen I was more than pleased to
see Danbox washing and drying the dishes. Here I was bracing for the worst and
he was already a step ahead of me, one thoughtful step ahead. I smiled at the
sight of this simple act of friendship, and the knowledge that the little box
man gave me once again; for as complicated as I can be, as complicated as the
stories that I tell myself, right now all I really needed to do next was the
dishes…just the dishes.
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